Well my friends I am feeling SUPER frustrated with my body right now. Last Tuesday my estrogen level was only 26, by Friday it had doubled but only to 50 (which is still super low) and by Monday, after 7 days of Gonal F injections it was only at 59. So here we are and another cycle canceled. How my estrogen got to 900 last cycle I have no idea. Plus that was 1.5 weeks after stopping injections… so weird! I will be going back around Day 23 this month as well to see what it does. If there was one teeny tiny small win out of this whole thing it was that somehow I got a natural cycle. And it was a long one too – 7 days!
Anyways, with that I think I am done with the easier, less aggressive treatment cycles. I am going to talk to my doctor about taking the month of September OFF. I need some time to reset my body – I’m even considering doing a Whole15 to really detox my body of bad food – and then in October I want to start more aggressive treatment cycles with the goal of doing egg retrievals and potentially even multiple egg retrievals. If we can find some sort of treatment method that works for me and makes my body recruit follicles and eggs than I want to get as many of those eggs OUT of my body as soon as possible.
So that’s the latest update. I am so frustrated by this body of mine. I keep hearing infertility stories about couples in their mid to late thirties and I want to scream out loud until I’m red in the face that I’m only f*cking 27 and this is such f*cking bullshit.
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Ugh. I am so sorry. You have every right to be so f*cking angry right now. It’s just not fair that you have to go through this. My heart just hurts for you and Eric as it’s just so unfair that you have to fight so hard to have a baby. Let yourself feels those feelings because you definitely have a lot of process right now. I think that taking a month off to give your body a break is a good idea, though. Especially since it’s your birthday month!!!!
I’m sending lots of love and hugs your way!
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I vote that you scream, cry, shake your fist, stomp around and let it all out. It is bullshit. It sucks that you are going through this and it makes me angry for you. Take care of yourself the next few days (weeks), reset, talk with your doc and grant yourself some grace as you are going through a lot. Here for you. ❤
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I’m so sorry Amber. It’s so frustrating when our bodies aren’t cooperating. I think a month off to reset sounds like the right plan. And then go into October fighting!! Thinking of you.
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Lots of stuff going on and I haven’t checked in to see how you are doing. Progress is progress doesn’t matter how big or small it seems. I’m excited for you guys. Glad you caught this early and you have some time.
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